JOEY

I can now truthfully say that I hate someone. When I said my dad or any other person, it could not even come close to how much I hate Joey.

Amanda(a sophmore in Technical Theatre also) came up to me and told me that someone metioned that they liked my atittude toward the upperclassmen... wtf?! They said that I basically treat the upperclassmen as dirt. Amanda wouldn't tell me who said it and when she left, I began thinking of all the people I talked to that day. Gorgiania(a senior), Patrick(my crew chief, a senior), Lance(freshman, Actor), Beth(a junior, Tech.), Katie(junior, Actor) Terry(sophmore), Joey(freshman, Actor, alway will hate me), Katie W.(best friend, junior, Tech), Mr. Joyner(my stagecraft teacher) and Ms. Kim(Mr. J's GF).

I narrowed it down to the the people who were upperclassmen and who I really talked to today. I was left with Gorgiania, Terry, Patrick, Beth, and both Katie's. I couldn't figure it out. I hadn't treated anyone wrongly from my memory. Who would say something about a person that isn't true? I thought, 'Well my momory is all that good... maybe I said something to someone and they had gotten offended by it...' And I finally dropped the subject out of my head.

Couple hours later, I was asked to take some staples out of a 'pluff' or something in the shop. I'm almost finished and I heard my name. I looked up, but no one was around. I heard me name again. I got up and heard my name once more, but I found who the voice belonged to this time. Joey. I ignored it for a while... untill I heard some rather odd. If I heard this correctly, he was talking about how stupid I was, how I didn't belong at Harrison, and how I treated people so horribly.

I almost broke down and cried right there in the shop. I wanted to shoot him. Why someone do that to another person? Now matter how much I hated someone, I would never spread rumors about them. I was filled withso many emotions of hate and saddness... Oh my god it hurt. If it wasn't for my best friend, Katie, coming by at just the right time I would have just started crying.

Later, I got to go home early by asking Joyner if my new job could be 'sleeping'. He was like, "Go home." I knew he would say that too. He wouldn't want to put up with me if I was just gonna complain the entre time about sleep. I was so happy to go home. I called my mom and I was off again....




BLACK CLOTHES

Run crew has to wear black clothes when the show is going so I had to go to Wal-mart earlier to get black long sleeve shirt and black pants with balck shoes. My mom and I had a fight about my shoes. She picked out these valcrow one and I do NOT like valcorow I was searching for another pair of shoes that wear BLACK and had laces... Mom got so pissed, she and I had an arguement right there in the store. She finally got her way, though... i couldn't find anything cheaperwith laces... >>;;

The drive home was nice... I finally cooled off because drove by the house and let me cool down before I had to go home... that was cool, I guess...

LAME-O


IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc..)
2. Put it on Shuffle
3. Press Play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the Next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool...

1. Opening Credits:
Can't Take It by All-American Rejects (Apparently I cannot take my own life..)

2. Waking Up:
Bicylce Race(remix) by Be Your Own Pet

3. First Day At School:
Do You Believe In Magic by Aly & Aj

4. Falling In Love:
Noone Said It Would Be Easy by Sheryl Crow (It's not really...)

5. Fight Song:
I'm Not Running Anymore by John Mellencamp

6. Breaking Up:
Some Kind Of Wonderful by Joss Stone (Are we being sarcastic?)

7. Prom:
If It Isn't Her by Ani DiFranco (...uhh ohh...*walks away*)

8. Life:
Where the World Began by John Mellencamp

9. Mental Breakdown:
Long Day by Matchbox 20 (*GASP* THAT IS ALREADY MY MENTAL BREAK DOWN SONG!!! WOOT!!!)

10. Driving:
Where Can I Stab Myself In The Ears by Hawthrone Hieghts

11. Flashback:
Words I Couldn't Say by Rascal Flatts

12. Getting back together:
Mad Season by Matchbox 20 (*sings* I feel ugly, but I know I still turn you on *sings*)

13. Losing your virginity:
Bed of Lies by Matchbox 20 (*falls out of chair laughing ass off* Makes me wonder what kind of guys I REALLY like!! xD)

14. Wedding:
Beautiful Disaster by Kelly Clarkson(where is the divorce question?)

15. Birth of Child:
Run, Baby, Run by Sheryl Crow

16. Final Battle:
Killer Queen by Queen (...awesome...)

17. Funeral Song:
When I Fall by Rachel Lampa (...*sings* Will ya catch me when I fall?! *sings*

18. End Credits:
Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year by Fall Out Boy




LAST NIGHT

Happy new year's btw...


I stayed up all night trying to get my game to finally load. I had nothing to do so I was thinking about last year. Not the good times either... and that was really stupid... I am still trying to decide if it will be a suckass year... I don't think this summer will be though..

This summer I have plans!! AGAIN!! MUUUHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA---- *cough cough cough cough* *dies becuase of the lack of air and brains* I'm going to do a summer school class again... and I'm trying to decide if I want to go see my sister in Chicago... if I do... I'll have to pay for my own plane ticket... meaning that I wouldn't get my camera at the begining of next year unless I get a really good job like manager of a store... but I doubt that at my age... and I am going to try and get a better job than babysitting.. My friend is a little youger than me and is bagging grogries at Publix... I figure I could do that... babysit on the side, I guess...


SEE YAS GUYS!!!

MUCH LOVE!!
PEACE!!!
HOPE YA HAVE A GREAT YEAR!!!
OUT!!!

~Ally, Kyrie, Kiwi, Emo-Bitch... or what ever the hell else you know me as... *sigh*

MERRY -2 DAYS LATE- CHRISTMAS

YEAH! xD *HYPERNESSNESS*
OKAY!! My secret santa at school gave me a BIG bag of starburst and I have been munching on that and chocolate ALL DAY!!! NOW I'M HYPER!!

MY CHRISTMAS WAS----- BORING!! YEAH--- wait... NO!!! But it was still cool because I finally got my VIDEO CARD!! My computer screen will be like... OH YEAH COOL!!! PLUS I GET TO PLAY WORLD OF WARCRAFT FINALLY!! OH YEAH!!! *just need to get it set up*

I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE A GREAT CHRISTMAS!! Eventhough... some of you were sick... THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU DIDN'T HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMAS RIGHT?! RIGHT?! RIGHT?!??!?!!?!?




NEW YEARS

I have NO IDEA what I'm going to do then... I might go to the park and lay under the stars talking to myself all night... X-e;;




JOKE

150 years ago, President Lincoln found it necessary to hire a private investigator - Alan Pinkerton for protection. That was the beginning of
the Secret Service.

Since that time, the federal government has produced a large number of multi-letter agencies such as: FBI, CIA, INS, IRS, DEA, BATF, etc.

Now, we have the "Federal Air Transportation Airport Security Service". Can't you see them now, these 'highly trained' men and women in their black outfits with jackets saying across their backs:
F.A.T.A.S.S.

The FATASSs are, of course, supervised by a special section of the Home Land Security Section known as: Airport Security Service Home Office Logistics Enhancement Section or the
A.S.S.H.O.L.E.S.

I feel safer already.

50 NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS

1. Be someone by the end of the year
2. Have someone by the end of the year
3. Stop biting my nails totally
4. Improve my mad drawing skillz
5. Realize that I have a family no matter how much we fight
6. Get a good job
7. Get my Nixon D80 camera after the 2007 Christmas
8. To be someone who another can count on
9. Live through my freshman year
10. Tell him I like him
11. Learn everything I can about technical theater
12. Finish something I started a while back
13. Face all my fears
14. Tell my dad that I love him and mean it
15. Help my mom buy a house
16. Go see my sister in Chicago
17. Get approved to go to Woodstock
18. Learn to sing
19. Get back into dancing
20. Keep all my friends
21. No matter what people say, don't give up at Harrison
22. Stop fighting with everyone
23. Pass the FCAT
24. Get back on dA more often again
25. Remember things more
26. Keep my room clean for once
27. Never give up
28. Have more faith in myself
29. Read as much as I can
30. Say something "inteligent" for once
31. Open m heart and save me from myself
32. Go through all my stuff, burn the bad and hang up the good
33. Stop being arrogant
34. Stand up for what I believe in
35. Finish freshman year with flying colors
36. Follow all my dreams
37. Get out of America, even only for a few hours
38. Learn to drive better
39. Stop having stage fright
40. Stop being a total loser
41. Forget everything and start over
42. Learn to play something
43. Learn to keep my friends
44. Go on a major shopping trip with my friend Dj
45. Stop wishing that everything would disappear
46. Hug a random stranger on the streets
47. Donate $50 to soem random homeless person
48. Give myself some credit sometimes
49. Stop avioding people and things
50. Never forget that I am someone, I can stand on my own, I am strong, I can shine, I have a family, I have people to count on, Mother Nature made the road rough so we could learn to walk, we fight not because we hate each other but because we are irritated, the world can never it's back to me, I am special no matter what people say or what I think, I am loved, and giving random people on the streets could be dangerous...


Merry Christmas to all my friends and family! Have great Year! I hope all your Resolutions come ture! Remember that I will always love you no matter who you are and I cannot forget some poeple becuase they are so secial to me! Some of you may not realize it, but I really do care about you no matter how much a bitch about you! Much Love! Peace! Happy Christmas and New Year's! See you all Next Year!

FINALS

Harrison student have JURIES!! Wtf is a jury you ask? What ever the fucking teacher wants.. Stagecraft I this year interviews. I was the best at dressing for an important interview. I found out that I really don't fit in with a lot of people and a big reason that my Stagecraft teacher wants to keep me around is that I clean everything and yell at people who don't clean anything. I found out that Harrison is my true home and I never want to leave. I don't want to come home, which is probably why I have been staying after school until 9 willingly. I wish that I brought pants to school... so i could stay after... seriously.. Everyone that I've met that have had the teachers I have have said that they ALL have REALLY hard finals... and I'm not sure if they were joking or if they were actually serious... but I'm still like... FREAKING OUT!!



PRESENTS

Every fucking time I TRY and go Christmas shopping my mom is always like... we don't have any money and we need to buy your sisters a present. WELL I was gonna do that! So it is a week before Christmas I have bought no one a present. AWESOME!!! *sarcasticness ozzes from last comment*



MY WEEKEND

Seriously, I think about dropping out of Harrison and going to live my dad. I cannot handle my fucking grandparents when they blame every fucking thing around them for not having anything when they buy EVERYTHING off of Ebay!! My sisters didn't clean their room meaning that I and my mom had to help and we moved a desk downstairs and now my grandmother is blaming not getting the tree up on us because we "moved the table where the Christmas tree is gonna be!" EVERY second of the day seems to be FULL of fighting... nonstop.. I fell alseep.. CRYING... at 3 am because of the sound.



HIDING

I have never felt this depressed so close to Christmas before... I want to crawl up in my cornner, cry, and stay their untill all of this ends.



MUSIC

Mother Mother by The Veronicas

Mother mother
Can you hear me
I'm just calling to say hello
How's the weather
How's my father
Am I lonely heavens no
Mother mother
Are you listening
Just a phone call to ease your mind
Life is perfect
Never better
Distance making the heart grow blind

When you sent me off to see the world
Were you scared that I might get hurt
Would I try a little tobacco
Would I keep on hiking up my skirt

I'm hungry
I'm dirty
I'm losing my mind
Everything's fine

I'm freezing
I'm starving
I'm bleeding to death
Everything's fine

Yeah, I'm working
Making money
I'm just starting to build a name
I can feel it
Around the corner
I could make it any day

Mother mother
Can you hear me
Yeah I'm sober sure I'm sane
Life is perfect
Never better
Still your daughter still the same

If I tell you what you want to hear
Will it help you to sleep well at night
Are you sure that I'm your perfect dear
Now just cuddle up and sleep tight

I'm hungry
I'm dirty
I'm losing my mind
Everything's fine

I'm freezing
I'm starving
I'm bleeding to death
Everything's fine

I miss you
I love you




Change Your Mind by the All-American Rejects

Don't solve the problem,
when danger is better.
~Far away where you stock them,
in cages that tether~

And all the bridges you've burned,
leave you trapped off at all sides.
And now the tables do turn,
and it's all gone, what's left for you.

[Chorus]

And when the sky is falling,
don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear I'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fast road.

It's just your doubt that binds you.
Just drop those thoughts behind you, now.
Change your mind.
you Let go too soon.

Sit down, you're sinking,
there's no one to watch you.
Skip town, you're thinking,
there's no one to stop you.

And all the bridges you've burned,
leave you trapped off at all sides.
And now the tables do turn,
and it's all gone, what's left for you.

[Chorus]

And when the sky is falling,
don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear I'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fast road.

It's just your doubt that binds you.
Just drop those thoughts behind you, now.
Change your mind.
Let go too soon.

[Chorus]

Don't run away,
Start feeling fine.
It's better than your worst, your worst day.
No words to say, I'll give you mine,
and pocket all the hurt, just stay.
Don't run away.
It's better than your worst, your worst day.

And when the sky is falling,
don't look outside the window.
Step back and hear I'm calling.
Give up, don't take the fast road.
[x2]

It's just your doubt that binds you.
Just drop those thoughts behind you, now.
Change your mind.
Let go too soon.
[Chorus]

Don't run away.
Change your mind.
Let go too soon.
[x3]

Don't run away.
Change your mind.